Love is Not to Show Off

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爱思英语编者按：曾经我以为轰轰烈烈的爱情才是真正的爱情，直到认识他后，我才明白平平淡淡才是真。绚烂之后总要归于平淡，柔情蜜意之后总要归于驱寒问暖。只有平平淡淡才会细水长流。

That day I accepted his love, at last.  I believe that a woman"s heart is all soft.  If a man loves her wholeheartedly, she will be touched eventually.

I once believed that only admirable, vigorous love is true love. I did not know that to be plain and common truly lasts until I met him. Anything glorious or splendid will eventually come to calmness; tender feelings will always end with kind, day-to-day concerns. Only mildness and common feelings last long, like water flowing out in a trickle takes a long time to exhaust.

Knowing Fei was a gentle romance. Even till now I dare not believe that I could have possibly had that romantic encounter. On an evening when we were celebrating the New Year, I was running for an appointment with a male schoolmate. I was dressed up that night, for the appointment, as well as for the brimming joy for the new year. I was wearing a long, soft and smooth hair and was lightly made up. My eyes were made big and radiant, just like those of the Barbie girl. My eyelashes were long and flashing. I was so charming, even to my own belief that night.

Wearing a short, purple skirts exposing my feet down the knees, a pair of long boots, a white jacket, I went through the small roads on my campus. It breezed up. My hair was fluttering in the wind, and so did my skirts.My heart, however, was worrying a lot, for I was going to be late. Just then a bicycle pulled up in front of me,the boy rider took a glance of me and rode away. He was pretty good-looking. I was not at all concerned about him at that moment. I walked on, and met him again. He started to talk with me. His voice was soft and he seemed honest and frank. I did not treat him as a stranger. For fear of being too late, I agreed to have a ride with him. When I came back from the appointment,I met him a third time. "He must have been following me," I thought in my sub-conscience. That boy was Fei.

The next day Fei started to work on me. When he was sure that I had no boy friend, he ran along furiously after me. Nevertheless, I got totally frustrated when I had the first appointment with Fei. That night when we first met, I only saw his face and did not notice that he was very short. My first response in my heart was "I could never love this man ever in my life." But all he did could not make me dislike him. I had to agree that he was a boy of talents. He took me to a river nearby our campus for the first appointment. It was in the outskirts of the city, everywhere smelling of countryside.He taught me photographing. He loved photographing and had won the first prize of some big national contest.He was quite a movie buff. He shot videos and also won a national prize. And, more importantly, I shared many of his hobbies. We were both emotional. But, I knew that he and I could only be friends.

Fei"s love was truly too strong. He made it so difficult for me to refuse. Every day I would see him around, sometimes brave with an excuse, sometimes following me secretly. It was near the school finals.I asked him not to come see me. He agreed. But he still played little tricks to follow me without my notice. He had graduated and did not have much to do. One day he had thought that I was going to review my subjects in the classroom. He tried to look for me and searched through the whole teaching building and the library. He did not find me. I thought he had lied until the last time he got me—I was busy reviewing my books in the classroom and he suddenly passed me a coke from behind. I was well surprised. How much patience it must have taken him to find me in such a huge building! And he had to look in one room after another. During that period of time the classrooms were all filled with students working hard for the finals. Perhaps one can put himself to such big trouble only when he truly loves a girl. He searched through the classrooms, one by one,and enjoyed the fun of searching. I was a bit moved,but again I was not ready for his love. I reminded myself, "I would never be ready for this man."

Every night he must be calling me, telling me his deep love. I had to admire his being so eloquent. But I knew that I could not love such a short man, even though he was intelligent and talented. I had been dreaming of meeting a tall man. I was short myself, and I wished to marry a tall man so that my child would be taller. But the long-bearing dream shattered that day. That day, I saw him ordering my favorite dish. He helped shell the shrimp one by one. I could hold back no more, tears running down my cheeks. I thought that I may have been too spoiled. Which other man on earth could be so good to me, so dedicated to me? That day I accepted his love, at last. I believe that a woman"s heart is all soft.If a man loves her wholeheartedly, she will be touched eventually.

Being with Fei, I was not feeling good, or I was not balanced in my heart. I thought that I could have found a better man. Whenever we went through crowds, I felt that I was exposed to all. Tens and thousands of eyes were staring at us. I thought that they were stinging me like honeybees. I was very embarrassed. Once a girl even said "one man"s meat another man"s poison." I was truly beginning to regret. I wanted to part with him.But when I saw his eyes of concerns, and his unconditional care, I compromised. I actually told him that we should part for quite a few times. But I could never have done that, as he always forgave me and cared for me just as usual. I came to realize that I needed him more and more, as he was always forgiving me,understanding me, and protecting me. He made me feel the unfathomable feelings in the world. Afterwards, I never mentioned to part.

I married Fei and we are living happily together. I am no more embarrassed. I can take his hand and bravely walk in crowds. Only till now I"ve come to realize that nobody would take notice of you, or your other half. All the embarrassment came from within.

I remember the most touching scenario with him was when we were standing on a tower. That day he carried me on his back and climbed 15 stories, until he got to the top.He kept saying "I love you" as he climbed. He must be saying 100 "I love you". To date I have still believed that being with him is always so romantic and fresh, although he is not the one I dreamed of marrying.

It turned out many days afterwards that, on the night when we first met, he had hidden himself to watch me meeting the male schoolmate, in order to tell if that boy was my boy friend. Thus he started to pursue me. Knowing Fei made me understand that the love a woman wants is not the handsome prince in her dream, that love is not vane, not something to show off, but the genuine, practical happiness that we can possess.

If  happiness is just around, please do not let it go.

曾经我以为轰轰烈烈的爱情才是真正的爱情，直到认识他后，我才明白平平淡淡才是真。绚烂之后总要归于平淡，柔情蜜意之后总要归于驱寒问暖。只有平平淡淡才会细水长流。

和飞的相识，有一种罗曼蒂克的浪漫，直到现在我还不敢相信，我会有那样浪漫的相遇。

那是一个迎接新年的夜晚，那晚我正赶着去赴一个男生的约会，当时那个男生追过我一段时间。那晚，我打扮得特漂亮，不仅因为要去约会，也因为新年的到来让我的内心充满着愉悦的情绪。我留着一头柔顺顺滑的直发，特地画了一下淡妆，我的眼睛经过我的修饰就像芭芘娃娃的眼睛那样大那样亮，长长的睫毛扑闪扑闪，连我自己都觉得很迷人。那时我穿着及膝紫色短裙、高绑靴子、白色上衣，穿梭在校园的小道上，微风吹拂着我的长发，我的裙子也在微风中摇着。我的心却急得像热锅上的蚂蚁，因为我快迟到了。这时我看见有一辆自行车突然停在我的眼前，自行车上的男孩看了我一眼，男孩长得很清秀。但是他马上又骑走了，我对这一时刻并没在意。当我走过一段路时，男孩突然间又出现在我的面前，跟我搭起话来。他柔和的声音及坦诚的表情让我并不防备他，为了赶上迟到的约会，我坐了他的自行车。回来时我又偶然碰上了他，我下意识地认为他跟踪了我一晚。这个男孩就是飞。

第二天，飞就开始展开了攻势，直到确定我没男朋友展开了猛烈的进攻。然而，当我和飞的第一次约会时，我彻底失望了。那晚我只看到他的脸，根本没看到他的身高。第一次约会后，我真真正正地看清楚他，他是个矮个的男生。那时我的第一反应是我这辈子都不可能喜欢上这个人。但是他所有的表现又不能让我讨厌他，我不得不承认他是个有才华的男生。我们第一次约会他带我去学校附近的一条江，那里是郊外，有着恬淡的田园气息，他教我学摄影。他喜欢摄影，曾经得过全国某个大赛的一等奖。他喜欢电影，拍过的DV获全国优秀奖。而且更重要的是他有很多爱好跟我很相似，我们都是性情中人。但是，我知道我和他只能做朋友。

但是飞的爱实在太热烈了，他让我有些招架不住。每天他总是会追随在我旁边。有时候是光明正大，有时候是偷偷地在暗中。那时学校正在期末考试，我要求他不要约我，他答应了我。可是他还是耍了小聪明，偷偷地跟随我，那时他大四毕业，也没什么事干。有一次他以为我去自习，找遍了我们整幢教学楼和图书馆。那时我以为他撒谎，直到最后一次，我在教室里自习，他突然从我后面冒出来，递给我一瓶“王老吉”，我才吓了一跳，那么大一幢教学楼该得有多大的耐心才能找到一个人，而且要一间一间地找，那时自习的人很多。也许得真正喜欢一个人，才能耐得住性子，在一间一间的教室走过中，寻找追寻的快乐。虽然我有一点点感动，不过我还是没有心动，我告戒自己：我绝对不能对这个人动心。

他每晚固定给我打电话，倾诉浓浓的爱意，使我不得不佩服他的好口才。但是我知道我不能爱这样一个矮个的男人，尽管他很聪明、很有才华。因为我一直都在梦想找一个高个的男孩，我的个子也不高，我希望我的下一代能高一点。但是这种一直以来的梦想就在那天粉碎了。那天我看着他点我最喜欢吃的饭菜，帮我一只一只地剥虾，我忍不住哭了。我想也许我太不懂得珍惜了，还有哪个男的能对这样的用心，这样的认真。那天，我终于在他的热烈追求下答应了他。我想女人的心都是比较软的，只要男人真心实意对她们，她们最终都会感动的。

和飞刚相处的一段时间，我总感觉不自在、心里不平衡，总觉得自己可以找一个更好的。每当我们一起穿梭在人群中，我总感觉我们太显眼了，有千万双眼睛在盯着我们，我觉得别人的眼神像蜜蜂一样刺着我很难受。有一次甚至被一个女的说这样的一句话“萝卜青菜各有所爱”。那时我真的动摇了，我想和他分手，但是看到飞关怀备至的眼神，体贴入微的照顾，我又不忍心了。也有好几次我曾动摇过分手的念头，甚至提出分手。可每次他的原谅和体贴总让我妥协。我越来越觉得自己离不开他，因为他总是那样包容我、呵护我，让我感受到这世间无法比拟的情感。后来我决定再也不说“分手”两个字。

现在我和飞在一起了，我们过得很幸福。我再也不会不自在，我可以勇敢地牵着他的手走在人群中。现在我才知道其实别人并不会在意你，也不会在意你身边的另一半，所有不自在的感觉只是我的心理作用。更多信息请访问：http://www.24en.com/

记得和他在一起最感动的一件事就是在塔上的那一次。那天他背我上十五层的塔，不断地说我爱你，说了一百声的我爱你。至今我都觉得和他在一起，总会有那么多的浪漫、那么多的新奇。虽然他并不是我想象中的梦中情人。

后来才知道，在遇见的那个晚上，他为了探测我约会的那男孩是不是我男朋友，还躲在小地方观察了一下。就那样，他开始追求我。和飞的相识，使我明白：女人想要的爱情不是想象中的梦中情人，爱情不是虚荣的代表，可以拿来炫耀，而是真真正正、实实在在拥有的幸福。

假如幸福就在你的身边，请不要放弃。